This is my final post to the journal, as I compile and edit for the final piece. Â This project has been great, partly because it has been difficult. Â I hope to one day repeat it, with a twist which I cannot now anticipate.
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I'll end it where it began, on my pillow.
Haven't spoken enough about my dreams & nightmares on here, thing is, it's a collection that goes as far back as I could take it. Â Anyways, I enjoy lucid dreaming whenever I can achieve lucidity, and will either wake up longing for that dream to have been reality, or dreading the fact that I could experience such despair. Â So this is a photo of my bed, which is where half of my life has taken place. Â Tomorrow's my birthday.
It was almost as difficult to photograph myself photographing as anything else in this project, but it had to be done. Â I wanted to make sure I wasn't just staging myself shooting, but actually capturing a shot at that moment.
Had most of the film developed, now waiting for tagging and the selection process.
Still frustrated with the double exposing mechanism, so shifting back to the studio for a little for some finishing touches.
The lever on my AE-1 is no longer allowing me to bypass winding forward the film for double exposing. Â I'll try and fix the problem, but I may have to resort to pairing through digital means, which is a letdown. Â Thought I wouldn't run into problems, as I shoot photography often, but I suppose you must be very lucky to have a flawless run.
Silhouette of my sister modeling for a shoot at sunset. Â Exposed so that you only get a small taste of the earlier shots. Â Whenever I get her car is a blessing; biking for shooting locations in no easy task. Â In fact, it is a nightmare.
Thought I'd give a closer taste of my inspiration board, but it's a little personal; sort of like an insight into the way I actively steer my mind. Â Self perception is a curse and a gift at times, depends on how you use it I suppose.
Working on scoring the project, which is a deviation from the visual, but I can't isolate the two, sensory overload is too dear to me. Â I will probably score half of the project myself, and the other half use others' records. Â I'm not starting from scratch however, but building off of some old projects.
As most photographers, I started with an obsession for gear. Â Now it means absolutely nothing to me. Â Funny how that goes; on that note, I'm prepping my gear to go shoot some dreams.
I have quite a few rolls of Kodacolor, which have been discontinued for years now. Â They were very expensive, but I use them sparingly on my Ricoh rangefinder. Â Double exposing on this film will not be possible, so I might end up digitally reproducing the double exposure effect for this particular film type, probably for a couple of the shots in the project.
Off to the field.
I've decided to score the project myself, probably a bad idea in terms of logistics and timing, but I'll probably end up using bits and pieces of several projects I have lying around.
You must refrigerate professional film, to slow the chemical processes and extends its life. Â The peak date is usually a week or two after anticipated sale date.
Got my board, so I'm cutting out and pasting everything. Â A little low intensity busy work to get the ball rolling.
I'm printing images for the inspiration board I'm going to go pickup later today, anything that reflects the direction I desire. Â I hope it will help keep me on track, as I'm not entirely sure about the concept of creation without a framework while on a deadline. Â I guess millions of people do this everyday;
hope I can too.
I picked up a bunch of 400TX film. Â The first roll of film I ever shot six years ago was 400TX, and so it continues to be one of the main aspects in my arsenal. Â I also have a bunch of film laying around I'll be shooting as well.
I've begun work on Dreams & Nightmares : Double Exposed; since the inception of the project, I've been taking note of the dreams and nightmares on the whiteboard I got, pictured.
Still in the initial phases of the project, my camera will not be capturing my manufactured scenes yet, but waits patiently, while I continue to photograph on my own.
I'll be needing to compile a more formal list of dreams, nightmares, and moments which seem as either. Â I'll also need to get some more of the types of film that I feel will be appropriate. Â An inspiration board will be necessary to keep my direction moving in a visual aesthetic manner, and not getting lost elsewhere.